To You:
I want to take out the garbage twice a week for the rest of my life with out you reminding me. I want to make you breakfast every Sunday and always eat the biggest pancake and call you silly for not trying the bacon. I want to get haircuts and clothes that I would never buy cause you think it makes me look handsome. I want to touch the chicken for you. I want to dance to bad music in the super market while you get embarrassed. I want to hold your purse uncomfortably when you go shopping for hours on end and only buy socks despite trying on 10 dresses. I want you to meet my cousins little girl because i know she will love you and hug you. I want to meet all the cats that we will have through out our life and jokingly argue about the awesome names I pick and the sorta lame ones you choose. I want you to hold my hand when I fly on a plane, cause I'm scared of the engines making weird noises. I want to go to far off stupid places just because they have the best candy. I want to watch you chase butterflies.I want to make scrapbooks about our trips to those far off candy shops. I want you to be able to rely and depend on me without any second thoughts. I want to play guitar with your dad and make him see that I'm a good man so he will let me marry you. I want to promise your grandmother that we will raise the kids totally Jewish and swear the Christmas tree is just for the dog cause hes catholic. I want to be your slave when your pregnant. And I wont be mad when you hate me for doing it to you. I want to change diapers and pretend that I'm immune to the horrible stench of baby poo. I want to tell our kids about how stupid I was and how their mom woke me up out of a stupid life. I want to show them pictures of us looking good and doing things they think are lame 15 years from now. I want to see you dress our daughter up in beautiful dresses that make my mother cry out of happiness. I want to be a good father and a good husband. I want to still be totally into you as we get older. I want to tell you how hot you look when your old enough to start feeling the time. I want to slap your ass when we're in our 40s and make our kids puke a little bit. I want to see the world with you. I want you to teach me Hebrew. I want you to know we did the right thing...eventually. I want to quit smoking, lose weight and live forever with you. I want to retire from our several lucrative businesses and settle down on our own farm. With all the regular farm animals and then some tigers and otters and lamas and dolphins and polar bears and every cute strange little marsupial we see on the internet. I even want to get some possums even though they are the nazis of the animal world. I want to complain about the music our grand kids listen to and tell them boring stories about things like beer pong and theoretical physics. I want to be confused with you. I want you to take me to the dr and the post office when im 80. I want to make a beautiful speech and make you cry tears of joy on our 30th,40th and 50th anniversaries. I want to never ever lie again. I want to be the strongest most honest man you know. I want to grow older and older with you. I want to flirt and dance and get a little dirty even though our parts don't work so well any more.
I want to love you. Simply love you till the end of time. And my stupid brain wants you to hate me. And I can make that better, but you cant give it to me. I need you to love me even when I don't deserve it and you don't want to. I know that I really hurt you, and I will never forgive myself for it, so you can one day. I will punish myself everyday so you don't have to. I will never forget what I did. Whether you let me love you again or not. This is the first day of my life.
always, always, always
From: Me
To You:
So, Now that you're gone.. for good.. and i've had some time to get out there and start meeting new people.. i've realized that i'll never meet someone as good as you.. i'll never be as attracted to anybody as i was you.. i'll never yearn for anybody as i did you.. i'll never write songs like i did for you.. i'll never look at other girls while i'm out walkin the street and think to myself 'yeah, she's pretty cute, but she's got nothing on MY girl' ... well.. i will... but it won't be 'she's got nothing on MY girl' .. it'll be 'she's got nothing on YOU' ...
But.. so it goes.. and i was immature, and acted wrong, got too wrapped up in you, and everything that was happening.. and i let it fall apart.. i ruined it.. i'll accept that.. i understand why you eventually drifted away.. and i can live with that... well.. i have to live with that.. so i will.. try...
I'll never forget the feelings i felt because of having you in my life.. and i never will.. and i will forever be searching for someone to give me those rare, fleeting feelings that you gave me.. that i KNOW you felt also.. which is what made them so intense.. but.. alas.. they are gone.. just glimmers and sparks of memories now.. and i'll hold on to them, and forever search for someone just like you.
"Sure you made an impression. Depression."
From: Me
To You:
Still do, always will.
From: Me
To You:
_____,
Even though my feelings for you have waned and slowly morphed to hatred, I still ache for what we had.
I know that I have to be able to find it somewhere else,
with someone else... but at times ... most times? the cause seems to be a lost one. It's as though no one can ever make me feel how you once did. Optimistic, motivated, enthused with life, the embarrassingly cliche "stomach butterflies." How is it that I can look on you now with eyes filtered by remorse and repulsion, when not so long ago I saw nothing but a lover I adored beyond comprehension? I do not long for you back... but only because what you became is not the same creature I once cared so deeply for.
You have permanently altered my paradigm on love and life, and I'm still deciding if it is a change for the better or worse. I am so afraid that the way I felt about you is something I can never feel again. It terrifies me that it was all for nothing. You let it go for the worst reason- none. Irony at it's best, when you brightened my world and gave me hope... only to tear it down again. Is the desolation worse than it was before you? Or have I strengthened? I think perhaps that both are true, if it is possible. I know that people always change and grow as they experience life, but this was a shift that was horrifically painful, and has darkened my views to dismal cynicism. You have made me a stronger person, but I think you have ruined me, too.
I wish that I had never let you in.
-_____
From: Me
To You:
i wish we never hugged that day.
i wish we never felt the same way.
i wish i could forget you.
i wish you could stand up for yourself.
i wish you could "MAKE THE BIG GESTURE".
i wish you could give back the picecs you stole.
i wish you never left that day, my heart wanted you to stay.
now i know who you are.
you are someone who gives up easily.
you are a coward.
you are someone that promises the world and inevitably takes back.
you are bullshit.
you are a liar.
you are not a friend.
you are a fool.
you are a fool that i am in love with for no fucking reason at all. i am holding on to the "idea of you" and "idea" that never really existed.
i wish i never met you.
From: Me
To You:
I love you and your silly website...
From: Me
To You:
I think you still love me, would you tell me if you did?
From: Me
To You:
To: Londonman
I still don't understand why I walk into your bar that day, I was lost, something drawned me to you. I have been waiting for you for so long...
Of all the joints in the world she happened to walk into mine. I wish I can go back on the time and have you told me again can I buy you a beer?
I wish I have told you yes when you asked me if I wanted to marry you, If I fancy you and I wish I had say yes when you told me if I wanna get pregnant from you and move to London.
I wish I walked up every day with you next to me saying kiss. I never had anything so perfect in my life. Nothing ever had felt so right to me.
I know I had walked all the routes I had walked in this world to met you and I know is late now, is like a crystal that had broken now.
From: Me
To You:
My Dear Bad Bad Boy,
You haven't changed one bit even after all of these years. Somehow you managed to capture a piece of my heart. Although, I know deep down there is something still there for you. My head wins every time. I can't be with you the way i need to.So I'd rather not bother to get hurt. I just never had the chance to tell you that I really care deeply for you. My stubborness will never let you inside unless i truly know that you are sincere. I gave you a choice and a chance to prove yourself. You failed miserably. (haha and thats ok) I don't expect much from you. I understand that you can not change anybody. They have to want better for themselves. I know that there is someone who would love to be with me. Unfortunatly, all I want is what I can't have! I want you. I don't even know why! It is what it is, my love. I'll see you in my dreams. <3
From: Me
To You:
How could you be so foolish to let this go? we could have been something amazing. also i'm bored with everyone else, so that sucks too.
From: Me
